Rating: 5/5 Stars
Format: physical library book
Let me begin this by saying I wasn’t going to rate this. Not because it wasn’t amazing, because it was. But because I think a rating of such a personal story trivializes the story. So, I’m a little iffy about giving this a rating. Still, it’s such a beautiful and much needed story.
All I’m going to say is as someone who is a rape survivor, this book was hard to read. I was a victim for years at the hands of a family member and it’s still a painful experience.
I loved this book. It took me longer to digest because there is so much to process. It’s such a well written book, but it’s not easy to read. I’m sure you could just sit down and read it in a day, but I felt much better taking my time so I could get the full impact.
Chanel is such a strong person. I admire her for taking back her narrative and saying she’s a victim but not his victim. I just… wow. She is claiming herself back and showing her tenacity . She talks about the whole process of the journey embarked upon from going to a party and waking up to find out she was raped. There’s a lot of sadness in this book, but there’s a lot of beautiful elements. Chanel talks about her family and childhood… her life… everything. Yes, it’s hard to read about her dark times but those are so important. She shares about how she felt fine… then dealing with her trauma and finally telling her story. I don’t have enough words to commend her spirit and how amazing she is. Chanel is so bad ass.
Chanel also touches on other events happening around the same time. Things I had forgotten about and that others probably have too. She frames them in the context of the world around us and the injustices still happening today. We have become so numb to events happening we just accept them and never ask why is this occurring or what we can do to stop them. The events are Isla Vista shooting, the murder of Philando Castile, the election of Trump, the concession of Hillary Clinton, the Cosby trial, and a few others I can’t recall. But they are all important. Reading this books makes you realize how much we should be paying attention to the world and seeing we need to be better and do better. Victims are speaking all of the time, and we all need to listen.
I absolutely adore this book, and I think everyone should read it. Definitely one of the best books of 2019 and in general.