Author: Candice Carty-Williams
Genre: Fictional Biographical/Coming of Age
Publisher: Orion Publishing
Rating: 4 stars
When I started this book, I thought it was going to be an easy read. Just like a simple story about a woman living in London. I guess this book was supposed to be like modern version of Bridget Jones, but I have not read those so I can’t actually say. This book suddenly turns into a darker kind of book really quick. This book is dark and intense, it is about Queenie who is trying to find her place in the world after losing her boyfriend and being unsure of who she is as a black woman in the world.
This starts out with her breakup with Tom, her longtime boyfriend she thought was going to be the man she married and spent her life with. She thinks their break will just reunite them, so she pushes down a lot of her emotions and jumps into random relationships with men to avoid feeling anything at all.
She starts having sex with random men and not caring about her feelings. She comes to see that her job and having a relationship with Tom wasn’t making her as fulfilled as she thought. With the loss of Tom, she just jumps into the wrong end of her emotions and sleeps with various men to try and quell the pain she doesn’t want to face.
She then ends up losing one of her best friends because of a situation which is not her fault. It was more like just choosing the wrong man to sleep with. She then ends up getting rejected by her past flames and is put on leave from her job because of one of the men she slept with. This is when she realizes she needs to reevaluate her life and make some better choices to avoid hurting herself again and again.
As a child, she felt ignored and unloved and this is why she feels like she is not worthy of love or having a good life. Hitting the bottom for her helps because she seeks help and learns how to forge a better life for herself. She learns she is worthy of love, she learns to connect again with her mother, and she plans to move on from her past to make better choices for her future.
This book contains so many layers. Queenie learns about her own worth, what she wants from life, self respect, and the importance of family and good friends.
This book is beautiful, and I loved every moment. I learned more about the experience of a black woman, which I thought was very insightful. I could also relate to all of her bad choices about men because I have been there, and it is hard but sometimes good to see yourself in a book. I remember going through a similar journey, and I am grateful to have come from the other side safely.
This was a solid debut novel, and I look forward to reading more from this author.